@szarabasjkali said: where can I read this?
Author Castiel Novak has finally hit the big time, with a book based on his failed college relationship with a brilliant painter. He’s put all his pain behind him, but at a book signing, he comes face to face with Dean Winchester for the first time in twelve years, and the reunion doesn’t go like Cas hoped. Dean’s a broken man, with a lot of scars and secrets, shoulders weighed down by his demons and self loathing.
Cas sees a second chance with the man he’s never stopped loving, but Dean’s moved on, and is about to get married. Sam launches a “brilliant” plan to reunite his brother and his best friend, but Cas is worried it will all blow up in their faces, and he’ll go through the agony of losing Dean a second time.
IT BROKE MY FUCKING HEART! But the ending was happy and made me cry even more.
the best fic I have ever read and it brought me so much pain and joy
I think if Dean didn’t see Sam in the passenger seat and it was just his dad going there to pick him up I don’t think he would have left.
But when he saw his baby brother his face was all:
”I just wanted you to be a kid, just a little while longer. I was trying to protect you, keep you safe. Dad didn’t even have to tell me, it was just always my responsibility. It was like I had one job. “
Dean knew if he stayed Sam would not have much of a childhood, i mean, he barely had one as it was but it was there, even if it was only by a small amount, and that was because of Dean.
Dean knew if he stayed who would look after Sam when their dad went on hunt? Who would protect him? Feed him? Spend time with him?
Certainly not John. Sam would probably have been dropped off at another hunter’s, maybe Bobby’s. He’d grow up not only without his dad, but, without his brother. And I think Dean knew that.
He chose Sam over a girl, he chose Sam over happiness. I don’t think people understand how much Dean has given up for Sam.
Dean is very loyal to his family, and that is what I love about him. He puts them first, yeah, that’s not healthy, but he does it, without a doubt in his mind.
STOP IT YOURE MAKING ME CRY
I’m sorry babe!